今日の話・出来事・考え

1:
when i saw my parents today:

me: "hi, i got 73 for bio."
mum: "hmm? but that's still not an A right?"
sis: "don't hao lian lah."

WHY YES I HOPE YOU'RE ALL HAPPY!

i'm not really, because suddenly a lot of people hate you. suddenly you're in a one-metre radius invisible hemisphere barrier. you don't have the right to complain about anything. you don't really know what to say.

ただ自分の気のせいだが、それでも気持ちは変わらないね。

i miss 401. i want to talk to huimin, i don't know why..

loneliness is terrifying. so is insecurity.

2:
现在心里有点不平衡。

3:
the school population is unfair to SMTP. maybe HP as well, as much as i dislike to admit. they're just people who ... do things differently? and then they're labelled and ostracised and used as a bashing board, even though the school loves them.
well, maybe that will hold for just today.

4:
sometimes things come out wrong when i say them and i just end up not saying anything.
other times i worry that i'm bothering people.
but i'm still listening, i am.

5:
it doesn't matter where you live, what matters is that there are people you want to go home with going home with you.
when there aren't any, the mp3 is your best friend.

6:
mad cow day was highly highly highly amusing.
i think said cow reached the same mental state as gecko did when she slept for 1 hour and came to school punning her head off.
we're probably all secretly that crazy inside, just that we hide our craziness behind a facade just to get along with society. and maybe adults, who forgot how to remove it. then when we let it out, it's addictive and we can't stop.

7:
having your life planned out for you by the almighty government, running around this big place called school and spending most of your time in stuffy boxes with no ventilation called classrooms when all you want to do is to live like a certain shinya-san and run around highland fields and all the beautiful space and not deal with people sucks.


7 is the most magical number. 8 is the most symmetrical. i don't know what's wrong with my brain these days. it's not standing up for itself.

i think i need 3 weeks or more to recuperate from blocks. but there's not enough time! i can't deny reward for 2 years!

休ませてくれ！そうしなかったら倒れるぞ。

Labels: life, random, school

Tuesday, July 21, 2009 8:30 PM